rebound

i need Thee every hour, most gracious God
no tender voice like Thine can peace afford
i need Thee every hour, stay Thou nearby
temptations lose their power when Thou art nigh

hahaha... always a hymn-singing Methodist at heart :)

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i feel a lot better. all i really needed was some time alone, Jars of Clay and my Bible. which i haven't had all together at once for a long time. i guess i struggled for so long because i wanted things to be under control. i finally realised that they are, just not mine.

i started playing morrowind again!!! haha... unlike other RPGs, there's no linearity, no constraints, so i go around audaciously stealing items right in the open, killing quest characters, getting myself killed jumping into lava and such, basically reconfirming that mike is most retarded. when oblivion [i.e. the fourth instalment in the series] comes out, i'm going to be supremely anti-social and play for hours on end. whee!

ok mike quit being dumb. just using this hols to take a mega-break from stress. i must apologise to kai for screwing up our day together yesterday by being overly affected by so many things. to avoid a repeat of like circumstances, i shall remember the following:

1) i'll let groups settle themselves. whatever happens, happens.
2) sleep MORE and drink LESS [if at all] before an impt day and don't stay up watching football, as impt as that is too
3) things screw up because they're given a chance to. as far as possible, nip the problem in the bud.
4) appreciate the ones who stay by you in your worst moments

and thus ends mike's plan of action.

actually, not quite. the basic foundation beneath all this is still that i should 1) love, 2) trust and 3) enjoy God. only then will i achieve all of the above. in faith :)

oops. i just washed the bottle of bacardi breezer which was being attacked by ants. i think they got drunk for a bit there. i should remember to clear things from my room a tad more often and not let it transform magically into a pig sty, thereby incurring the wrath of mother and girlfriend. both at once would be disastrous.

okies, tis late. i wanna have lunch but i haven't quite decided where yet. i'll take a stroll around. my sis is coming back today, my mum and bro will be back on thu and my dad next week, bringing a close to mike's days of monastic [lol] isolation at home.