i've decided finally that SMU it will be. the allure of NUS has long diminished, and my pipe-dream of Canada fades even more remotely away with each passing day. that means i'll be staying in Singapore, contrary to my expectations of years past. princess is right: i've always been the type to be rooted to where i am and enjoy my surroundings no matter how absurdly [including my love-hate of Singapore]. it was funny how i was watching trees and lamp-posts whizz by on the bus back from bugis and thinking to myself, 'So, i'll be here for another 4 more years at least; seeing the same trees and lamp-posts, watching my favourite haunts evolve with the face of Singapore...'

i have such a long list of reasons for staying, but perhaps few are more integral than the fact that i know i'll be going overseas for full-time missions in the end. i'm not going to be the disappearing child of my family and i'll stay with them while i still can.

sigh. i have so many thoughts in my head but no words or will to express them.