i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now

and all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i don't know how

dear groopeas and TSDians, a reverberation of the love and tributes that will undoubtedly fill the blogosphere. who imagined after our 'cult-session' introduction last year to TSD that it would end this way, in streams of happy tears and warm embraces that we resent to relinquish.

i rmbr my turbulent entry into groopeas, wondering if i was fit to be in TSD. how mik, mak, ming, bob, vern and yish turned my TSD life around, i will never forget, over a pile of Munchkin cards, dinner and love. our mediterranean lunch was enjoyable i hope, and i hope the true believers will always keep the faith. GROOPEAS OUTING!!!!

my heart is heavy, with guilt that i gave too little sometimes, or with disappointment, that there were so many things in TSD i wanted to do but never did. but now isn't the time to wallow in regret because i have no regrets about joining this course. for giving me sleepless nights. trudging out of school at 2am. dropping lit. feeling inferior. they wash away when i realise how TSD has been God's tool in grooming me and i smile.

most of all, TSD brought me to kai and vernie. i remember the distant days when people used to put vernie and i together, and how silly it all looks now. i remember declaring how kai was the kind of girl i would love deeply as a friend but never as a girlfriend. how silly. then i remember how i told kai i loved her. and when i told vernie, how she did all she could to set us up -big warm group hug for my favouritest schoolmates-

our parents went for supper today at a bak chor mee stall [mr brown anyone?]. it was nice for our parents to meet, since these are the people who have defined my college life more than anyone else. my food junkie princess and my scarlet rosed girlfriend. how we go out together, eat together, complain together and love each other.

it felt like meet the in-laws on one hand. yes, i do want to marry kai, and i hope her parents like me and see that i really care for her and won't hurt their precious daughter. on the other hand, it was hilarious to finally trace the influences of vernie's parents on my dearest princess. haha... when we grow up and if vernie don't find a boyfriend, kai and i will get married, buy an apartment and get princess to move in :) it'd be so fun to grow up together...

alright, the sentimentality can wait. i'm feeling immensely blissful and sad at once

hold on, hold on... don't be scared
you'll never change what's been and gone
may your smile shine on
don't be scared, may your destiny keep you warm

'05 TSD would like to thank all and sundry for the best 1.5 years of our lives