my love-life's been dramatic to the point of soap-opera-ness. i spent the last few days thinking and remembering, and it's been an interesting experience, as it always is. discard everything before evelyn and it's still an awful mess with a multitude of mistakes on my part.

the problem is that i've always been looking for a long-term commitment but i haven't the patience to see my short-term infatuations develop into something more stable. urgh. maybe smife might empathise. tis an awkward, often misunderstood feeling that confuses me too.

i guess it's good in that way now that kai's around. i spent the day studying with her then strolling around a bit more. after being a flighty, somewhat reproachable love-seeker for over a year, it's extremely comforting knowing that i've found mutual love and faithfulness. the problem with trying to pursue someone is that it feels awfully one-sided after a while and gets exhausting. haha..so maybe it's just as well that i never had to 'pursue' her per se *smiles*

ok i don't know why the hell i'm talking about love and life, which is tragically adolescent but what the heck. i think i'm just gushing. i swear that's why no-one reads my blog except kai :P